memories of you
are clammy and fat
in need of a wash
and some cardio
time to slim down
to forget the regret
to give up the guilt
and grow the fuck up
those lives won't be lived and
those ghosts had their fill
pale and purposeless things
bygones bygone
5/10/22
pen pal
10/14/20
a planet out of whack
i dream about
wearing my father's face
while i watch
and wish
the mother's mother
a fond farewell.
her tired breath brings things
i'd never thought possible
for possible thought,
terrible words to
wreck and wound.
awake now,
and there are
thirty minus nine
left to go.
4/24/19
god damn it
the heart is not
enough and
i’ve never been
mine,
not even in sleep
ten and two or three
and i hate that i don’t
hate you
the heart is not
enough and
now you have him
i have unsettled skin
stalling the dreams
that are always about you
i’ll never not
wade in our weight
we were all i ever wanted
all of me will
always be yours
even if you don’t try anymore
by
stephen
2/7/19
Forever
i am full
and bloated
heavy with
what i watch
what i want
a sweaty web
dark and drooping
hung and stuffed
with all the sad shit
wet and unforgettable
i am higher than my dosage
yet lower than then
walking toward the heap
dug up there
detached and deep
still slouched and slow
stopped and seated,
my fingertips drawing hearts
on the backs of my hands
one again, one and open
9/1/17
the happysad
i'll go to a beach
with wet sand
white and grey
the sea will be cold
and the sky will be dark
it's warm here
with cold winds
i'll dress for summer
and stand in the water
i am at the happysad
on the ridge just beyond
and just before.
with wet sand
white and grey
the sea will be cold
and the sky will be dark
it's warm here
with cold winds
i'll dress for summer
and stand in the water
i am at the happysad
on the ridge just beyond
and just before.
by
stephen
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